It would be hard to compress in one post everything that happened in 2010. Too many things have happened and it would be beyond me to enumerate everything. I have so many ups and lows this year. Yet, I still feel like no matter how many bad things take place, I can still say that this is a good year. Then again, I am also quite relieved that I’ve reached 2010 with high spirits.
With just a few hours left, I’m going to say goodbye not just to a year but also to a decade. I wouldn’t even attempt to point out the high points of the past ten years. Besides the fact that I am lazy, I also do not have the luxury of time. But this surely is one memorable year.
When I asked my boyfriend if there’s anything he doesn’t like about me, he was said that there’s really nothing he doesn’t like. I prodded even more for answers. Then he said that sometimes he’s “amused” at how gullible I am about life, how clueless and childish I am about the real world. I understand what he’s saying. I know that I can be pretty daft about the serious stuff. I am pretty immature. I was glad, though, when he said that I am changing and I am learning. He said more mushy things but the point is, I think I grew up a lot this year. After everything that has happened, it is quite impossible not to change.
I graduated from college.
If you think about it, I also graduated from grade school and high school this past decade. So I graduated thrice! It’s a big deal to me. Anyway, I have never been more relieved in my life the moment I finally finished my college clearance. Yes, at that point on, I was sure that I’d be leaving my home for four years. Finally. I love Elbi with all my heart but I don’t really want to stay there forever. So 2010 isn’t just the end of a decade for me. It’s also the end of school, of tiring course work and doing irrelevant things like finding the values of x and y. I wasn’t exactly sad to leave college, though. I was excited for so many things to even bother thinking that I am closing another chapter of my life. It’s not just a chapter actually, but you understand what I mean.
I turned 20!
This year, I left my teens to enter the world of adulthood. I refuse to leave, to tell you honestly. Ha. This is quite a huge turning point for me since I’m so concerned with my age. I used to like being the youngest in class. I can’t exactly explain why, I just like being the youngest. Also, I am kind of pressured to accomplish so many things while I’m still young. Heck, I plan to have a baby by the time I turn 25. I don’t see it happening, though.
We finally made it official.
It’s quite sad how Alex and I used to not even know what to call our relationship. All I know is that we were exclusive, and we’re just waiting for graduation. Remember when people kept asking us every other day if we’re finally officially together? Remember when people would assume that we are “together” but we’d sadly say that we’re not. I guess I could have just went behind my parents’ back but I am pretty sure that I am glad we waited. All I can say is that I am happy to end this year with Alex (spiritually, anyway). He really is the one person who kept me sane during my stressful unemployment period. He was also the one who lifted me up (literally) when I was too weary to continue my thesis. You simply have no idea how much I love this boy. And I know I look insanely happy when I’m with him. We don’t have a lot of decent pictures together, unfortunately.
I cried my eyes out.
All I can say that I have never been this weepy since I was thirteen. I seriously stopped crying the moment I reached my senior year in high school. Then when I was finally a senior in college, I become all weepy. I started showing my emotions to people which I don’t usually do. I still don’t like crying in front of others, though. The last time I did that was during graduation. Heh. But being depressed isn’t all bad, I guess. At least, I no longer feel weak when I cry. It’s also a very good way of relieving stress.
I traveled a lot.
This year gave me a chance to explore so many places! My sister and I went to Singapore and Malaysia during the summer. I’ve always wanted to go to Singapore, and I’m glad to have finally crossed it out of my Countries-To-Go-Visit List. I’ve always said that I wouldn’t leave Philippines, that I can only live here. After going to SG, I couldn’t help thinking that it really is a nice country, and I wouldn’t mind living there. I only stayed in Malaysia for a day so I couldn’t say much about it. I wish I explored it more, though. My family also had a little roadtrip last June. It was fun since I usually just do that with my parents and sister. It was the first time that I went somewhere far with my grandparents and cousins. We went to Subic, Manaoag, and Baguio. Anyone who said that Baguio is no longer a good tourist destination is probably out of his wits. But really, this roadtrip taught me that I still wouldn’t exchange Philippines for anything else. I wish that next year, I could go to other places, within or outside the country. Korea’s still calling my name.
I finally have a job.
Though my work isn’t exactly glamorous and isn’t what I envisioned, I still love working. I am a pretty chilled person who’s not easily pressured. But I like being productive and I like how I can see my progress in my job. I admit I don’t see myself in this job in the next two years, but I like to make the most out of it. I swear we have the most relaxing working environment. Maybe a lot of it has something to do that I have very young co-workers. But I just love that everyone’s so friendly and fighting never occurs. Well, a lot of teasing happens but that’s really essential when you want to have any relationship with anyone. I am rambling, sorry.
I went back to reading books.
I didn’t read much back in college. I think it’s one of my regrets in life. I’m a bookworm but my college schedule prevented me from reading as much as I like. Right after graduation, I started reading again. I feel like I missed out on so many books that’s why I’m making up to it. In the past eight months, I’ve already read 31 books. Next year, I want to read more. I just want to read so many things. I don’t know what to read first. But I will read books until my eyes pop out. There’s really nothing compared to that amazing feeling of finishing a good book. I am happy that I felt this numerous times this year. Let’s do it again in 2011.
Lived in Manila alone.
I have lived in Laguna all my life. I even stayed in Laguna for my college education. It’s weird how excited I was to leave home and live in Manila alone. My sister’s already in Manila but I didn’t want to live with her or next to her. I just want to try living on my own. Even if it’s only on weekdays, I still enjoy being by myself. Of course, I kind of hoped that I’d get my own apartment. Sadly, the rent in Makati isn’t cheap so I opted living in a dorm. I am hoping in a few months I’d be able to move out into a bigger place. We’ll see.
I did so many things for the first time.
Would you believe me if I say that during my undergrad years, I never experienced to commute to and from Elbi? It’s just something that my parents didn’t let me do. Now, that I’m working, I need to commute to Laguna every friday. You have no idea how thrilled I was. Working and living in Makita allowed me to do so many things that I would probably wouldn’t do if I worked in Laguna. I have a lot of regrets this year but working in Makati isn’t one of them.
I have high hopes for next year. I wouldn’t expect anything from anyone. But I swear I will make the most out of anything. I want to change even more, change for the better, hopefully. I am just so happy with my life right now that I really can’t wish for anything else. This has been a good year for me. I may even sound greedy to say that I hope next year would be better. I will end 2010 with my family. There certainly isn’t a better way to do it, right?